Issues

Everytime I quarrel with a certain somebody, I'll get so fucking pissed and leave without thinking. And guess what? I do enjoy being alone and having my "alone-time" doing whatever I want. I can surf the net, laze around without having to consider anyone's feelings. I do like that feeling. This is when I start to think about if I'll be happier alone. The thoughts get crazy so I'll say things that are very unpleasant to the ears just because I am fucking selfish. But, yes I know I am.

I judge too much. Just one wrong can overwrite all the good and nice things someone has done for me. I am like that and I don't think there's anything I would want to change. Hate it when someone keeps telling me to change my attitude and stop being stubborn blah blah blah. YOU should stop being annoying.

Then after I've calmed down.....I wonder if I should apologize. But no, I'm not saying sorry because I will never think it's my fault to begin with. I wonder when two people are together for too long, will it turn into a habit or are they still bonded together by something called "love"? I believe it's the former.

Feel like punchin' myself in the face and knockout now.