Mess in a dress

2011

2011-12-31T06:16:00.002+08:00

In the midst of writing my SIP report, I decided to take a short break to blog a really short post. The sun is almost out, well I hope it never comes out.

Anyway today is the eve of a New year and I've got a few New Year Resolutions on my mind which I will blog about once I have the time. Probably once I am done with my reports. I can't believe how fast 2011 has passed, as compared to the past few years, this year was really.....Exceptionally fast?

Quite proud of myself this year cos I managed to quit smoking, started to concentrate more on my studies (My results improved too!), spent more quality time with my family. Just to name a few. Not to mention, free from my upset emo days. Last year was crazy, I was forever upset and wasted my time doing stupid things. Wasted youth.

2011 has been more of good than bad. One of the toughest times this year was during my Internship, it was really hell for me. I hated it so much, and i'm glad it's over. Thats if I don't fail my internship. Great year spent with my good friends as well. Most importantly, I'm not wandering aimlessly in life.

I hope everyone will have a blast tonight, spending the last night of 2011 with your loved ones. And have a better year in 2012!

0459

2011-12-25T04:54:00.004+08:00

I realised that I get along with kids pretty well, which was never the case a few years ago.

Btw, a ugly cap (kids love it tho?) and I found out that Angrybird is called "Du lan jiao" in Hokkien. Er.......ok?

Totally. Random. Post.

I just saw this photo posted on J's Sis' instagram. Btw Im not an Angrybird fan.

Goodnight, hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.

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Okay, you may click on it to enlarge. So, I just checked out my Nuffnang and this is what I saw.

When people search "Jingyi sherleen", it gets to MY blog? Oh by the way, if you're the one that searched for her name and got to my blog. Please don't. One suggestion for you, try searching for "Sherleen loh cunt bitch fat" whatever, somewhere along that line. You'd get better results.

I do not like seeing my name next to that Bitch's name, it is motherfucking degrading because yes I fucking hate that bitch. Much appreciated if i'm not associated with her cos it's so nauseating and it's worst than vomit.

I'm not making a big fuss or whatsoever but you get my point. If u search for "Sherleen loh" and got to my blog. Here's a BIG FUCK YOU. Bitchface, another one for you cos i know you stalk this place all the time.

So yup, making myself very clear. Not directing this at any innocent people, tho I may get hate comments for being mean but I have my reasons. Thanks.

All things glitter

2011-12-25T03:47:00.006+08:00

It's Christmas time! I have loved celebrating christmas all along. I remember I didn't really celebrate Xmas in 2010, it was just simple dinner with J after 2 weeks of not meeting him. And this year's has been great so far. It feels pretty good to give myself a reason to shop for gifts, be it for myself or others. Got my parents gifts, presents for Gift exchange. Gotta enjoy the process of shopping for the gifts, don't get to do it very often.

I have time to blog right now because I chose to stay home instead of going out with J. Wanted to rest early but ended up updating this blog. Anyway..... photos!

Met up with Hua and Mel last night @ Town for dinner and a catch up session. Havent been meeting them alot and I miss 'em so much. The both of them are always so artistic and thoughtful to give me hand-made cards. I'm never ever good at making cards. I did one for Hua's birthday once back in secondary school and it was a big mistake. She knows, for sure.

We will not grow apart, well.... I will never ever forget the friends I made in secondary school. They are like the people I grew up with and how we took care of each other, had fun with each other. Cheap thrills but these are what makes the memories count.

I know who I can count on to pull me back to my true self when Im lost. You know who you are :)

Finally got my hands on the Naked Palette from Urban Decay. It is worth EVERY cent. Just started playing with the colors today.

Christmas dinner & gathering at J's sister's place. I had fun there! Food, wine, gifts. What more can I ask for? Everyone was so nice and it feels good to be celebrating Christmas together with so many people. Not to mention, J's sis was sucha good host!

Just check out the spread, yummers.

Honestly, if there's anything that I miss about Christmas, it's how my Family used to decorate the Xmas tree together, how my younger brother and I would collect all our presents and place them under the Christmas tree and we could only open them on Christmas day itself. I can remember the anticipation and excitement. I would give absolutely anything for that to happen once again, together as a Family.

Our old Christmas tradition.

Also wished Nel was in Singapore, we might just be drinking our ass off right now. There's so many people I miss on this special day. But anyhow.........

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas! (virtual hug)

Pest

2011-12-10T06:52:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling pretty messed up right now so here's a ranting post. Please don't judge me for saying all these but I really need to let it all out.

It is not even the right time for me to feel this shitty. I had a quarrel with J, and now I actually wonder if we're even able to live with each other when I'm already feeling this way. Things are so fucking different now and we quarrel a lot. And as much as I hate to admit my mistakes, I do admit them and apologise once I feel bad or wrong. But you? I don't even wanna talk about it here cos things between us should be settled privately, but I guess we shouldn't even try anymore. It's just plain tiring. The same old cycle, over and over again. What's new?

Next, my Uncle is another BIG thorn in my flesh. I do not know when he's gonna move out but I'm fucking sick of having him around in the house. He lives here for free, expects my Aunty to pay rent for him for his other house, dirties the house, thinks he is some kind of God. Seriously? U r a guest and yet u have no basic courtesy. The maid also not for you. Omfg I really fucking wanna punch him in the face. Best part? My dad tells me to bear with him cos he is my Uncle after all. But no, no no no. He is the FIRST adult i have no respect for. Zero. He's worst than a fucking dog. Wants to smoke, but no $ have to take from my Grandma.

Then today, I came home to find out that someone did not switch off my aircon and it has been leaking and my entire room's floor is wet and there goes my Macbook charger. I asked my aunt, she told me it switched on by itself. Really? My aircon got so high tech anot. I live here for so long, the aircon nvr switched on by itself, now it does magic? WHY CANT SHE JUST FUCKING TELL ME WHO? And I have to fork out $ to buy a new laptop charger.

This is the shit i have to deal with every single day and i'm fucking on the verge of exploding.

Maybe you'll never understand becos all you care is about your life, yourself, your problems and mine are just too insignificant. Thanks for not understanding.

Nel's twenty first

2011-12-04T20:09:00.004+08:00

Helllllo! It's been a long time but I'm happy to say ....I'm done with my internship! Fuck yeah!

It was one of the happiest days in my life to finish my internship. Felt so good. So, I'm back, back to my old life of late nights, mahjong etc. Internship stripped me of all my freedom. Well, almost all.

Anyway, photos of my bestie Chanel's birthday. Celebrated her 21st in one of the suites of Raffles Town Club. Theres a jacuzzi in the suite itself, how awesome is that?

Loving the pink and black balloons, so pretty!

Birthday girl!

I love birthday celebrations. It's like a joyous occasion and a gathering to meet up with everyone I love. Taking photos, enjoying ourselves. What more can I ask for? I was so tempted to jump into the jacuzzi so yeah I jumped in! It was too fucking awesome, staying in the jacuzzi while everyone else was intoxicated. Thx Nel for the birthday party, I had lotsa fun. And i won a "Walking booty" from the lucky draw ^^

Cannot express how much I love Nel, Sam, Sher! So glad that we're still so tight despite being in different schools now.

Right now i'm skyping with J while waiting for my Dad to meet me for coffee. Lazy Sunday.....

K bye!

2011-11-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

He just told me that he was in love with a pig.....Namely Sherleen his ex girlfriend. Oops, I mean his ex pigfriend.

I find it interestingly funny so there it's up here. OINK-OUT on a saturday night! mwa

2011-11-10T19:57:00.001+08:00

Having work means less of blogging, more of tumblr.

Do follow me http://scarletletterman.tumblr.com cos I'd love to follow you back!

2011-10-23T10:29:00.003+08:00

I'm not happy, havent been truly happy in a long time.

Somebody make me happy,please?

Oceanz

2011-10-17T21:42:00.003+08:00

Just a week ago, it was some Oceanz thai disco fest. We were like always there.

Was meant to be a surprise for Taili cos it was his birthday. Speaking of which,everyone seems to be enlisting soon, it's sad!

We surprised him, well it wasn't really surprising him but I was happy to be part of the surprise plan and everyone started spraying the party ribbons on his face,hair and then the strings touched the candle and his entire hair and head and arms caught fire but PHEW we were fast enough to extinguish it. It was fucking crazy and funny at the same time. Bastard!

After the burn. Everyone was laughing like crazy, the cake dropped on the floor, I was elbowed in my thighs and it hurt the entire night. But, trust me it was really tooooo funny.

Famz!

My darlings. Partying is always fun with them around, not just partying, everything's great with them!

My sista! Luv you long time babe!

This photo is fucking cock

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Pretty much sums up the short update. I really wanna blog more often but I can't manage my time well. Am so hard up for sleep everyday and time is never enough. Guess what, im already halfway through my internship so I'm not gonna give up now and at least prove to my company that I contributed to the company if not my appraisal will suck big time.

My friends are mostly leaving the country tomorrow for a short getaway and me? Stuck at work, really fuck my shitty life but it's temporary. It will change for the better once everything is over.

Halloween is in 2 weeks time, I can't fucking wait to celebrate it as well!

And I've put on 2kg ever since I started working. What the fuck. I should really start dieting soon. I wanna be as skinny as Cher Lloyd who is my new fav idol. Gonna take a warm shower and tuck myself into bed soon, goodnight.

2011-10-02T14:14:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon, Sunday. Feeling a lil' empty today.

October

2011-10-02T03:59:00.004+08:00

Saturday is already over once I woke up from my saturday afternoon nap.

Last night I was so excited to meet up with Amandal, Sher, Sam and Chanel! Havent met them since I started working and it was a good hangout and break away from work :-)

Went to FEP with Amandal to get the super hyped about "Ding tea" and it was really just so-so. I'll choose Gongcha anytime over this. Really disappointed... Damn!

Nel and Sam came over in the end, super wuper happy hehe. But we gave the thai disco a miss and settled for Mr Bean's cafe instead. Plus we sat there for a good few hours talking about everything under the sun (In this case,moon)! Lovin' my friends, they really make my day.

By the way, Amandal's New Paper new face competition will be this thursday. Please do vote for her. She's number 16! Teehee I'm so glad to be attending her finals cos I can root and scream fo' her while seeing my bestie Yt as well!

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My twitter timeline is filled with tweets about the rain now. It's great to be home and under my blanket with the warmth from my laptop lol But I wouldn't say I've had a great day. All I did was sleep. Gave everything else a miss, didn't wanna go out, didn't wanna talk. Wonder why do I isolate myself sometimes. Maybe it's a aquarius thing? Anyway, it just hasn't been a good day for me. I really wanna find a solution to this issue that has been bothering me for months. Sigh.

Stay warm tonight,bye.

Issues

2011-09-29T22:06:00.003+08:00

Everytime I quarrel with a certain somebody, I'll get so fucking pissed and leave without thinking. And guess what? I do enjoy being alone and having my "alone-time" doing whatever I want. I can surf the net, laze around without having to consider anyone's feelings. I do like that feeling. This is when I start to think about if I'll be happier alone. The thoughts get crazy so I'll say things that are very unpleasant to the ears just because I am fucking selfish. But, yes I know I am.

I judge too much. Just one wrong can overwrite all the good and nice things someone has done for me. I am like that and I don't think there's anything I would want to change. Hate it when someone keeps telling me to change my attitude and stop being stubborn blah blah blah. YOU should stop being annoying.

Then after I've calmed down.....I wonder if I should apologize. But no, I'm not saying sorry because I will never think it's my fault to begin with. I wonder when two people are together for too long, will it turn into a habit or are they still bonded together by something called "love"? I believe it's the former.

Feel like punchin' myself in the face and knockout now.

Wednesday

2011-09-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

Love this photo, so much memories..... We were so young back then. And this was after zouk at my new place. The past brings back so much wonderful memories. Sometimes, I wonder if growing up is really a good thing. Anyhow, I will be seeing my buddies, Yt mel and hua tomorrow! Long time no see.

My wisdom tooth is hurting every day saissss

Skyscraper

2011-09-18T21:29:00.003+08:00

I'm still surviving my internship. I hope the toughest part is the beginning because I'm trying really hard to sleep early and wake up on time every single day. Don't even have to talk about managing and balancing my time because I have no other life besides being in the office. Initially I thought it would be very refreshing to be able to dress up like a working lady and look professional but now I'm so sick of wearing heels to work everyday and have my feet hurting like a bitch. Sigh, enough of ranting about work. I will survive till the end of internship

And just a few days ago, I received my results for this semester and I'm so proud of myself for improving so much and all my effort didn't go down the drain (though i never really studied for exams). First time feeling this shiok about my results. School is so much better than work, honestly. At this point of time, I'm already lying on my bed and gonna head to sleep right after this blog post. So, for those who are in the boat as me (having internship)... Persevere till the end. Together!

Will update when I can. Good night.

This time i'm not leaving without you

2011-08-31T22:11:00.004+08:00

Can i just say that I'm super excited to get the fuck out of Singapore on friday? Yay yay yay.

Omg i knocked out for 3 hours after typing the above sentence, well done now Im awake in the middle of the night at 2am........ stoning. Nevermind, i've uploaded some photos of Morg's birthday which was quite a memorable day I must say haha. Pictures are stolen from facebook heehee

This was actually the condo I grew up in, I miss my old childhood neighbors so much and how we would play badminton, basketball, catching every evening. Too much warm and nice memories. Wow... and I was only like in primary school back then. Now i'm already 20, aunty already.

Happy birthday morgs!!!

And I remembered not uploading any photos from my previous trip to Hong kong about 8 months ago because the trip fucking sucked, therefore I'm giving Hk a second chance and I'm doing my homework on where i should go instead of complaining bored bored bored there.

But, the weather during that time of the year was great and it was like "natural" air con everywhere woohoo Winter wear rocks.

These are the only few photos I've taken. Too sian already that time.

My favourite photo of the lot, my brother took it. I love it.

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I just went to the airport today to fetch two of my best friends because they are finally back from Bangkok. I missed them so much. Okay, so the airport hmm reminds me that I'll be leaving Sg soon, I rly wanna get out of the country so fucking badly. This place is miserable. I love the feeling of packing my luggage, the whole excitement of the process and going to the airport knowing that i'm departing the country for real instead of just going there to eat. Hoho!

By the way, goodbye August and welcome September. August has been such a terrible emotional month, go away. September please be good to me!

Lazy sunday

2011-08-28T22:53:00.003+08:00

Doing something constructive, like updating my blog(?) before I sleep. Haven't been out "properly" for the past few days,but I don't care because I'm leaving Singapore for a short getaway on Friday to Hong Kong! Fuckyeah.

Supper last night, Coffee club @ T3. A good alternative for Mcdelivery, plus the airport is so quiet and nice.

Favourite passion fruit smoothie. I love everything that has passion fruit, especially Gongcha's passion fruit green tea, yumz!

This is something I'm quite proud of, also an alternative to Mcdelivery. Was feeling really hungry one night and i decided to cook spaghetti for the fucking first time! Wooohooo, it tasted not bad.

I'm gonna enjoy the cakes I bought from Goodwood park earlier on. Btw for durian lovers, you HAVE to buy their durian snowskin mooncakes cos it's super awesome. Really.

For those who are like me,having their holidays now.... Happy holidays! Enzoi.

2011-08-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

Was expecting to go out, have fun but here I am stuck at home on a saturday night. Why is this happening to me everyday? I miss my friends leh.....

Online shop sua. Good night.

2011-08-27T22:38:00.001+08:00

Had to delete the previous post. Why? Cos it screwed up my blog's template and Idk how to fix it,so i had to delete it! :-(

Wedding bells

2011-08-26T02:02:00.002+08:00

Here comes part 2 of the wedding!

It was held at a ballroom in Regent Hotel and that day was coincidentally my friend's (Bride's brother) birthday as well. Sweet. Only bad thing was I fell terribly sick right after the wedding dinner and my flu killed me straight after that, all I wanted to do was to get home and take an mc for my test.

Photos galore again, please do feel my joy once again. Honestly, Im so excited to share these photos on my blog.

I just thought he kinda looked like the staff there? Ha ha!

Look at the money box! Super fairytale magical-like, ain't it?

Getting ready for the solemnization :-)

Well, there actually was a special dance in which we (brothers & sisters) rehearsed a few times for the wedding. Initially, I thought it was gonna be pretty embarrassing to dance in front of such a big crowd but who cares, for the wedding I will do it! I surprise myself sometimes. So, unfortunately, my friends were not able to snap photos of the dance-in. I watched the edited version of the video already, it was hilarious. But the dance-in on the actual wedding day itself was the best, own those during the rehearsals. The bride and groom displayed their dancing vibes too!

Best soup I've ever had during a wedding dinner. Superb!

Had a free room at Regent hotel but i was too dead tired and sick to celebrate my friend's birthday so I crashed immediately after unpacking.

This entire wedding turned out to be such a great time for everyone. I did go to the Bridal shop with the bride and my friend to see her 3 wedding gowns and helped out in whichever way we can. And, it was my first time stepping into a Bridal shop and all the gowns were beautiful! It made me dream,hehehe Im sure every girl will wanna wear a wedding dress,get married and look super chio on their big day.

My blessings to the married couple! :-)

Love gives us a fairytale

2011-08-24T05:48:00.003+08:00

Hi all! I finally have time to update my blog. Have been so busy the past month, busy with school, projects and what not. Feels hella good to be free from my alarm clock and enjoying my sleep peacefully but it won't last for long because in a few weeks time I will be starting on my internship. #Lifeofastudent

So, I've been dying to blog about this special wedding that I attended 2 months ago. It was my friend's sister's wedding and I was one of the "sisters"! My first experience being that hehe and it was fun,exciting and of course tiring too. But now, looking back, it was a great and definitely the best wedding I've ever attended! :-) For now, I'm gonna post the photos for the morning part!

Am gonna be super generous with the photos so feel my joy!

Isn't she cute? She hates her dress by the way.

The beautiful bride! I adore her gown so much!

I think I looked like a mess that morning because (as usual) i overslept. What a pig.

So there was like a series of stuff the Groom and his brothers had to do, including wearing diapers,wigs and eating disgusting food.

This was the killer.

Everyone was so happy that morning! Even the little Giogio. The only bad part was that it started pouring like crazy in the midst of travelling, but i loved every part of the wedding hehe. Shall post photos of the evening dinner in the next post.

I promised to update and I did! I actually feel happy updating my blog. Okay, gotta sleep already. Got a birthday dinner to attend tomorrow!

2011-08-20T04:33:00.001+08:00

Sherleen loh I wonder if you even know your ex boyfriend cheated on you all the fucking time. And you're just a whore who don't deserve to call me by my FULL name you fat slut.

2011-07-25T22:22:00.001+08:00

Today, I was so happy that my grandma was discharged from the hospital. So glad to be able to fetch her home, back here with us.

But, today I also found out bad news and it's affecting me alot right now.

I really don't know how.

ADD

2011-07-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

I often wonder if I have Attention deficit disorder. I've checked the symptoms of this disorder and alot of it is relevant to me. I can't concentrate on doing things and my attention span is fucking short. I can't even sit down to type a few sentences of my reports, I'll start walking around finding other things to do. Sigh, this is not just it yet, still got more jialat stuff.

I really really wanna finish up my work asap and meet J for supper but I can't seem to focus and get started especially all the deadlines for my projects are nearing. I just finished playing with my green laser pointer and now Im just.....doing other stuff again.

This is not good

Anyways have a great and enjoyable friday night. Sending some love from here xoxoxo

2011-07-20T01:26:00.002+08:00

Life hasn't been too kind to me lately. It's been a week of mental torture. Made me realise that Im not as good as adapting to changes, well... I thought I was. Everything is just happening at the wrong time. God, I need a fucking break from life and the stress thats piling up.

But, this post is to remind me that I will pull through. Everything will get better. And, thank you for being there. Goodnight,x

Many shades of black

2011-07-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

Today hasn't been a good day at all, been worried sick for the entire day, rushing to the hospital. I have no time to do my work at all! Plus, I gave Club aura a miss tonight bc I really have no mood to drink.

Just a short update to keep my blog alive and saying Hi to whoever that is still reading this space. Everytime when I feel like blogging, i'll just procrastinate and when I really get down to blogging, my mind goes.....blank. So pardon me for blogging nonsensical and lousy content. There's one thing i know fo' sure, Im super wuper duper hungry right now. I had cravings for swee choon, fei fei wanton BUT no one to eat with me so I settled for mcdelivery. Best thing is that I've been eating so so much and then when I finally weighed myself yesterday after dinner, I still weigh the same. Fucking awesome!!!Weight is such a sensitive issue ikr.

Fuck man I feel like a fucking failure I really don't know what to blog about. People who are sad can blog about their sad love life, people who are happy can blog about their happy lives. And I fall into the category of "People who don't feel shit" so what do i do?! Feels good to float about aimlessly in life, doesn't it.

Till the end of time

2011-07-05T23:36:00.004+08:00

It's a pity how we don't meet up as often as before. Must be due to all the shitload pile of work we have from school. I really want a serious catch up session soon! Miss yall,miss having sleepovers,miss secondary school days (sigh)

And to the one and only vivi in shanghai, we miss you too! Our group chat is nothing without you........

GOD,I MISS YOU ALL SO FUCKING FUCKITY MUCH! If you see this, here are some virtual hugs and kisses xoxoxoxoxo

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Today was a good plus bad day. My day started off badly, no car to drive to school and I had to wear disgusting formal wear to school and I stepped on saliva while playing fishing joy on my iphone damn it fucking gross I had to walk bare foot home. On a brighter note, I went for a friend's ROM today and I feel really happy for him! How often can you find someone and feel so much love that you wanna get married? But ....okay not to be spoiler, I hardly believe in marriages. I'm so contradicting IKR,but I'm happy for those who get married.

People in love usually have this "glow" on their faces,you know what I mean??? Like they look super happy cheery and glowy, yes glowy ha ha ha! May all of you get the "glow" teehee!

Good night

2011-07-04T03:20:00.003+08:00

Thank you for making me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

My heart's a stereo, it beats for you so listen close

2011-06-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

Was contemplating if I should get changed and get out of house on this wednesday night and go to Titanium. But guess what.......Im fucking staying home to attempt to do my project. For the sake of school. Holidays was fun, the next one wouldnt be because internship is actually kinda nearing. To be honest, I'm kind of looking forwrd to internship because I hate being in a school full of unfamiliar faces and no offence, but there's quite alot of fucked up people around there.

Went to bugis today to walk around and all I did was to walk for awhile and I was already complaining how my legs were aching, I needed a seat...blah blah. Like a aunty leh me. If only we had wings and we can fly anywhere we want.

Think I'm gonna give mcdelivery a call becos Im hungry and all my friends are at thai discos, Im all alone (sobs)

I have nothing much to write about about my uneventful life and I realise that ever since I graduated from secondary school, my vocabulary is becoming limited and I have difficulties using colorful words to express myself. Oh heck, this is what becoming lazy does to you. It fucks your brains up big time. Agree?

2011-06-21T04:07:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes it's hard to be yourself in this crazy world."

I could have made use of the time we had left as a family under the same roof. I could have spent it wisely but now what's left are memories and regrets. Who was I to judge if it was all worth it?

0356hrs

2011-06-21T03:41:00.007+08:00

Didn't expect myself to feel exceptionally terrible tonight after having a quarrel. How i wish I apologised earlier and things could have been better, but no,I chose to slam the door shut and continued to act like I'm never in the wrong. So naive. Now I'm hungry and awake, without anyone to cook for me or bring me out for supper. Maybe I should start opening my eyes and learn to admit my mistakes. I don't wanna lose anyone cos of my stupid pride,not one more time.

I'm so sorry.

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Everything went well today. Green lantern (which is really lame IMO), haircut, meeting my homies for dins.

Haix...............I don't even wanna talk about my bad experience at the salon today. So, I decided to get a haircut because my hair was really long and unkempt I cannot tahan anymore. And I just randomly walked into any salon I saw cos I was kinda in a rush and obviously really lazy to choose. This china hairstylist attended to me and I can't really communicate what kind of hairstyle I wanted to have, to him. Fuck right, so I just told him I wanted to cut my hair shorter ( 5 inch shorter) and yeah shorter. It was like he was addicted to cutting my hair or something, keep layering and layering and then never even cut my fringe evenly. I thought "Okay, nevermind........." It gets even more annoying when they're not professional, plus they keep push-selling their packages and so and so.

Am never going back there. Now all I want is for my hair to grow longer, I fucking hate it big time. My ponytail looks like a piece of shit but whatever.....I really shouldnt have been so impulsive.

Sleeping my hunger off because I need to wake up for project later. Boo.

Blessed not impressed

2011-06-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

1. Dian xiao er for dinner

2.Ice cream chef

Cant get enough of ice cream chef's waffles plus my all time favourite chocolate and hersheys ice cream yumz!!! Y'all should try it out (if you haven't)

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Have been down with flu and cough for 2 weeks already plus I don't even smoke anymore. Im feeling so terrible every single day ew. Sick slob of mess. A huge relieve that my papers are over and I can finally make time to watch movies, go out and have fun w/o having to set my alarm clock to wake up. It feels great! Nothing fun has happened during the holidays so far.......But, I'm looking forward to this Saturday where I'll be partying with my friends for Sher's birthday. Birthdays and alcohol, hmm

And yes mel hua and yt we were supposed to meet this evening for steamboat at yt's new crib but bbgirl Hua fell sick. Get well soon hua! I miss you girls so much (if you're reading this) We need to meet asap!

By the way, I'd rather love than fight.

2011-06-08T02:26:00.002+08:00

Cant wait for this week to be over, it's pretty damn torturous. Running a serious flu and slight fever, having to deal with 6 (I skipped 1 paper) papers. This is hell. My body has been fighting to stay awake and digest everything I've read but these are all failed attempts. Just gonna crash right after this post and hope for the best when tomorrow comes. Times like this makes me realize that I do not want to further my studies anymore, I just cannot imagine going through all this stress and assignments all over again, don't feel like I'm gaining anything except stress. Should have dropped out of school during Year 1 but it's too late now. Boo. Good night all.

Scream your hearts out

2011-06-02T16:53:00.004+08:00

Eight dollars kbox with my best friends

Back to project work (I'm dozing off.....)

Last shot for redemption

2011-06-02T15:49:00.003+08:00

Favourite dog on earth!

Some really random pictures, haven't really been taking pictures and I really need to start investing in a better camera. Maybe a G12?

School has been draining all my energy recently. At the very least I'm making an effort to attend tutorials and do work. All that I'm looking forward to right now is the holidays and of course the wedding dinner I'm gonna be attending this sunday! I'm so stoked about it and it's my first time participating in the "Dance in" of the wedding. Will update again with pictures

I'm starting to think what I really want.

2011-05-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hihi Im not back to blog a decent post but I do miss blogging here. I have photos to post but Im too lazy to upload them and..... Yes Im just too lazy. Plus, school has already started and I'm gonna start focusing on my school work. Right now... Everything in my life is good and i have no complains. Never been any happier :-)

So, x my fingers I'll stay happy this way for a long time. I hope you do too!

I'll make every second count

2011-04-11T01:26:00.003+08:00

0126 about to sleep in 15 minutes. This week is different. Well, most of my friends are out of the country this weekend, my phone has been madly quiet. I miss them! Part of me wished I was there, but it's fine. I'm fine here in Singapore! Somehow glad that there's an abundance of time to spend with a friend but it would have been better if moods were lifted, instead of facing excessive stress and pressure. Not only on yourself, but on me as well. Things don't really go the way you want them too.

Goodnight

2011-04-08T03:53:00.001+08:00

0355 about to leave my house to send Hua to the airport

I woke up after 2 hours of sleep.... Wah shit man what is happening to me?!

K, leaving house now for some breakfast at the airport.

Give me everything

2011-04-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

War machine x Ironman

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Bought these at Chinatown Sq one sunday afternoon while looking at Toys and figurines with a friend. They're on my dashboard now, and its heads will bobble, super cute! Makes me happy even when I drive alone,haha!

I've got a really screwed up bodyclock, woke up at 5pm and I have to sleep soon to be up at 8am. Most of my close friends are leaving Singapore in a few hours time. Hope they have fun overseas! While I stay at home, use the laptop and play my Sg mahjong. Shall try to sleep soon, and I've a feeling this weekend isn't going to be as good as I thought it will be. Issues and headaches. Ugh,keeping my fingers crossed.

Night suckaz.

Going the distance

2011-04-07T05:03:00.003+08:00

Good morning!!

Waiting for 530am to receive my first happy text of the day!

Just a few hours ago, while I was heading out to my Mom's place then my best girlfriends and I had a sudden impromptu decision to head out for supper. Super on!!! I love it when we have unplanned "moments".

So Mel hua and I went out bare faced, had Mcdonalds for supper. And.... I had Mcspicy. But obviously, since I can't take spicy food, i took like max 5 bites and I gave up. My entire mouth felt like it was fucking on fire, plus I drank coke. Coke makes it worse right?! Nevermind, anyway I eat mcspicy like once every 6 months. The thrill of eating something spicy but trying to challenge myself, FAIL.

Supper was great with girls' talk about everything! Talks about the future cracks me up sometimes, like our reaction all fucking funny. Love it when Im with them, genuine friends, genuine laughters. No pretense, cos we're good like that! :-)

This ends my wednesday night on a happy note. Xo.

Candies and cakes

2011-04-06T23:55:00.005+08:00

Quite some time ago, last semester i think?

It's great to have my bestie in the same class as me hehe, always making plans on where to go after tutorials. I'm not close to my other classmates so thank god for Mel!

Then, I decided to do the DIY cake at the Icing room cos I like the cake. I was just bored la, really.

Hello kitty~

As you can see, it's damn fail

Decided to add on eyelashes for Hello kitty and then we started spinning the thing and this was the fruit of our "hard work" (beams) Kidding. But i had the whole cake to myself which was yumz!

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I think the timetable for school will be out in a week or more, hope I don't kena some lanjiao classmates. Wish some of my project groupmates will end up in the same class as me, i hope Mel will too!

Anyhow........i have this crazy craving for Samurai pork burger. Hua buy some back from Bkk pretty please hehe! So, uhm I spent the entire day at home, doing nothing but browsing through clothes. More hardcore than yesterday. Once i make payment for it, I'm gonna be mad ass broke. Just can't wait for the weekends so I'll stop being alone. Imagine if I ever go to jail, I have to sit in the cell all day long staring at the four walls. No blackberry, no internet. It's like living in solitude, won't people just go crazy in there?! Lock me up in my room for a day,I'm already going semi-crazy.

In the meantime...... Waiting for Hua's reply to confirm if we're having supper :-)

Heart to heart

2011-04-06T03:32:00.002+08:00

There's my favourite HyunA (the one in long black hair)

Favourite favourite favourite!!! And when I see her, I feel like a failure. Low self esteem all the fucking time. Had this sudden urge to go jogging.....Yeah i know i'm too lazy to exercise.

Nevermind. Enjoy the music video!!!

Cheating gravity and waiting on the falls

2011-04-06T03:27:00.001+08:00

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Shall do a short update while waiting for "Faster" to load on my other laptop. Sucks to have to watch it on my laptop.Alone. Because.... Yeah i'm a loner on weekdays and weekends no mood to visit the cinemas. I scare myself sometimes when I'm alone, I come up with all these crazy thoughts that I never thought i'd be capable of. And if I continue to be such a crazy fucker, I'm gonna be digging my own grave and I'll end up alone, that's the point of no return.

Headed to bugis today with Sher, and time passed pretty quickly. Also, I resisted buying a long skirt because I know it's gonna be a fucking impulsive buy. I bought a book instead! It's better to spend my time reading a book than to be sucked into the vortex of internet. It's crazy, it makes me browse thru all the sprees and there's a never ending temptation to spend my money. Worse, I have no input, only output.

Then again, better start cherishing the amount of time i have to rest before school starts.

Rocketeer

2011-04-05T02:45:00.002+08:00

My first time trying Freshness Burger last week

Well,I loved it (for a fast food restaurant), wasn't that bad but Shermain hated it. I need to ask her to give it a second chance and try it again.

Followed by Wendy's. Well.... i don't think it's nice lor honestly but fuck it I just wanted to eat.

You really have no idea how much I eat everyday, cannot sia. I really don't wanna be some fat lard that falls on the floor and then even a guy can't carry me up.

If that day ever comes, it's gonna be so damn embarrassing.

FAT.

Very unappealing, I know.

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Today I went to Nex mall again with Joey and CH for dinner. Dtf again!!! Ate quite alot and then headed to Ice cream chef to meet Jia en and then.....down to Amk to lepak. Well, I had a pretty great evening/night with my friends just sitting around and talking.

If this feeling comes and then goes away, then I'd rather it stay away forever.

Just a thought.

Anyhow, I'm going to take a 2 hour nap before waking up to send my friend to the airport. Very steady. Goodnight.

Awake and hungry

2011-04-04T03:38:00.002+08:00

Nice. I woke up for no apparent reason, at 3:30am when I slept at 11pm WHY LIKE THAT?!

Now i can't seem to go back to sleep, and my best friends are all sleeping so there isn't anyone to go have breakfast with me. Seriously craving for some macs breakfast, meesua and half boiled egggs...... I think i'm really growing fat....fat....and fatter as each day passes.

Diet plan fail.

I'm probably "blogging" because there isn't anyone to rant to at this time, and i'm motherfucking bored, there's nothing to do online. Facebook is boring, everything else is boring. The person I wanna text with is asleep, I'm having second thoughts about eating (but I think i'll most probably eat) because I ate ALOT today.

Damn it, I miss the weekends so much.

Good music, good company

2011-04-01T01:45:00.005+08:00

Best night i've had at Butter so far, it was better than good!

Was initially really lazy and tired to party, but never regretted going to Butter to meet my favorite people! Probably the first night in a long time I did not complain about my legs, my back and stayed all the way.

Skipped Nana and had supper at 126 after that

Tq everyone for making it a greaaat night! Xo.

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By the way it's 1st April which means it's April fools' day and i'm fucking well prepared for this stupid retarded day because I never fail to kena prank by my best friends, especially Shuhua, every year. I can still remember last year's. Just 20minutes ago, my friend tried pranking me but he failed. And whatever any one tells me, i'll have a lot of doubts cos I can't believe any of them.

Shall crash early tonight after eating some instant porridge (yes I love instant porridge) and then some passionfruit eclair yumzzzz~ Have a good day later on, and stay smart!

Muzik

2011-03-31T05:40:00.002+08:00

HOI Hi good morning!!!

Wish I can have this kind of lifestyle every day, when people wake up for work, I get ready to sleep. Just got back from Butter and supper with Hua, it was an epic night with everyone! Cant wait to blog about it with pictures, and it was just fun fun and more fun! Didn't regret going there in the end

Okay nuff' said I'm gonna wash up and dive into my bed.

2011-03-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

I don't ever wanna be fat, like her.

5:02 Bored

2011-03-29T16:56:00.002+08:00

HI currently at my lorong ah soo house now and i'm fucking bored.

The internet connection here is being a bitch and i can't connect to the internet using my mac so...Yes, using my bro's laptop and there's nothing to do except to stuff myself with movies on funshion.

Was supposed to go to town today to meet Damien but the car isn't with me and I'm too lazy to move out of the house. Town is so far from here! Maybe the furthest I will go is Nex mall, hahahah! Wait, maybe I should go there for a haircut. Should i.......or not?

Wish someone would kill me today and let me revive again tomorrow.

Waiting

2011-03-28T23:24:00.002+08:00

Change of plans, was supposed to meet Sam,chanel and co but guess what, being the procrastinating queen, when I was about to leave home, everyone else was heading somewhere else. I'm a failure.

Right now i'm playing with photobooth while waiting for Mel to get ready and head out for supper. This is random but i feel like eating chicken rice, and then have desert and a nice soda. Ah, fuck mondays. Time passes really slowly on mondays and tuesdays.

If you say things that are full of contradiction, you might as well shut the fuck up,kid.

I faked pulling the trigger

2011-03-28T00:55:00.008+08:00

So one night, Mel texted us to ask if we wanna go JB together and well, hua and I were fucking on for it so the 3 of us woke up mad early the next day just for it

Took a train there, it was fun having time to catch up, talk about anything under the sun, yeah literally, some weekday love right there

Why do they not have Baskin robins in Singapore? The ice cream is cheap and yummy!

I've been eating alot of ice cream recently, will not be surprised if I gain weight again, FAT.

"We dip, you drip."

This shiz tasted pretty good I must say, i only had one mouth of it

We were mad tired with aching legs towards the end, took a train back while it was pouring with lightning. Isn't it scary? It's like the lightning may strike the train anytime,no?

Ended the day with our dinner at Dtf, I luv luv luv xlb hxc, i love food!!!

I really can't wait to do this again with my girlfriends, it's a good way to kill time, catch up and of course... Cheap thrills! Although honestly, there's nothing much in JB in my opinion.

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Honestly, I've had a rough week but I'm glad all's fine and even better than before now, well it's good to be happy, everything you do just seems to be easier and happier. Been enjoying my holidays rather well, bumming at home or just going out because I don't have a job!!! The weekend was even better than I expected, quality over quantity, anytime. Gonna try to blog more during my free time because disappearing from the internet isn't cool, though some people might think it is.

Time to get busy and serious, especially about the thing I have a love-hate relationship with - Internship

Need to get the documents done asap! Have a great Monday suckaz ^^v

2011-03-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

Hi stalker, I gloat over your misery

How long did you take to find out, or did the tattoo make you dumb?

Tonight, tonight

2011-03-24T18:48:00.003+08:00

Had supper twice in one night, i think I had about 5 meals that day.Fei fei wanton mee with dimsum after that. Finally stepped on the weighing scale after a long time because I didn't dare to! Have been eating too much for my own good and I felt like i was really getting fatter, but thankfully I only put on 1kg so it isn't THAT bad right?

Met up with Andrew and Dionne after such a long time and we were so bored that we went grocery shopping at Nex

Pokka's new packaging, I think? It's cute leh

Mad love grocery shopping, to stock up on the food at home and lead my fatty life. Mel told me that this is the age when we'll start to balloon, so I decided to watch my diet but I couldn't even sustain the "No meat, more vege" diet for more than half a day. Fail. I decided to fuck it and just eat, when my weight hits 45kg then it's a sign for me to stop.

How can anyone not love food?

This is so random but guys will never be proud of having a psychotic ex right?

Hahaha!

Blessed with a curse

2011-03-24T16:53:00.004+08:00

Weeks ago at butter

That was the last day I touched cigarettes.

Sadly I won't be going to Bali with them.... But it's okay I hope they have a great time there, partying in the huge villa :-)

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Had a 14 hours sleep and woke up not long ago, I feel really good and energized. A pity that I do not have plans today but I'm dying to make some so my thursday will pass asap and it'll be the best day of the week. Gonna text my bb girls in awhile, maybe we can meet up,hopefully.

Yesterday was rough, I had an argument with someone I care about and I realized that i'm full of insecurities and sometimes, full of shit.

I should change.

4:13

2011-03-23T04:13:00.001+08:00

Intoxicated on memories tonight

Rebecca black friday

2011-03-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

I just had to share it HAHAHA

It's only tuesday and tomorrow's a wednesday. 3 more days to friday friday, gotta get down on friday!

Swimming in the smoke

2011-03-22T20:59:00.004+08:00

Day two of the week, passing really slowly when I've got nothing to do.

It was just an average day out with my Dad and bro, not even quality time. First, he commented on the change in my hair color and how it doesn't match with the fact that I'm still a student. That led me to thinking about the changes I've had in my life. It's funny how I'm already trying to change for the better, trying to spend more quality time with the family, having more meals at home and of course, making an effort to communicate. Not only is it about the family, I want to plan something out for myself regarding the future cos it seems really bleak. As everyday passes, I'm slowly inching towards the future a little more. It gets pressurizing, it gets scary.

You try so hard, but the one person you wanna prove to just dismisses your efforts and think it is insignificant. You get that feeling? I believe people change, why do people judge you based on impressions and the past?But then again, I think that's how life is supposed to be - Unfair.

Battling my inner demons and having so much to prove to no one else but myself.

2011-03-22T03:46:00.000+08:00

What are the odds of finding someone who loves you more than you love him?

Jar of hearts

2011-03-22T01:58:00.005+08:00

This was the last i've seen of my gold hair. Yes!!! No more black roots, for the moment.

I've been wanting to dye my hair red and I finally did it! No regrets :-)

Thank you mel for accompanying me,a thousand hugs.

So, we headed to town after that, the land of temptations, never fail to make me spend money when I'm trying to save up for a gift. But nonetheless, it was pretty fun to just walk and chat with my best friend.

Met stupid damien for a short while, munching on takopachi with coke.

I now haz red hair well it's slightly dark irl, sadly.

My first time buying nude lipstick

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First time trying red on my hair and it's refreshing to see a change because Im so sick of my gold hair and it's so difficult to maintain, especially when the disgusting black roots grow out. Maybe the next thing I'll do is to snip my hair short? Just maybe.

Every time I shower, the red dye gets washed off and I am so very sad. Cos it's making my hair less bright, I suppose? I heard red fades off really fast, maybe I'll try a even brighter red the next time? My poor hair really needs treatment big time. Mad damaged.

I really wanna blog about my short impromptu trip to Jb with the girls today but Im too tired and my legs are aching from walking too much. Why the fuck am I so weak now?! Walk abit then tired, complain legs pain, weather too hot. Fucking lousy pig. Well anyhow, I had a really really great day, we should really do this one more time!

Goodnight. X

Enchanting to meet you

2011-03-18T01:46:00.005+08:00

On a night when I went to Downtown east to find Mel, and totally skipped class chalet

Reached ehub but superdog was closed, superdog is my favourite I love ittttt so fucking much if there was a membership for it, Im sure to be the first to sign up heehee~

But it's okay I had Mcdonalds with Hua

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Love it when the 3 of us are happy like that bffl :-)

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I had a great week and time passed so quickly, well probably cos I had company for half the week and it's gonna be friday tomorrow. So fast! Well, today I received my results. To my surprise, I only failed ONE cds. Better buck up next sem, I'm so glad to see a change in me.

Went to city plaza with Mel, and decided to dye my hair after that although Hua totally ditched us today ARE YOU GUILTY! HAHAHA Then we had decided to go to town to look at some gifts hehehe Brainstorming what to get for the people we love excites me, don't you just want the best for the people you love? Makes me all cheery! I like days like this, i don't feel aimless and sad before sleeping I feel greeaaaaat today.

Gonna sleep goodnight

Follow you into the dark

2011-03-15T19:44:00.004+08:00

Some random day with Sher at Kallang, chatting up with some korean boy hahaha

This tornado potato thing with cheese is awesome by the way.

Followed by Marble slab, I can never get enough of ice cream.

Esp chocolate ice cream which I think Ice cream chef has one of the best chocolate ice cream yumz~

Am probably gonna spend my holidays doing nothing.

But i'm happy :-)

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Waiting to go out, im craving for some ice cream again.

Im pretty sure i'll be putting on about 5kg this holiday confirm.

2011-03-10T23:31:00.002+08:00

It's been a tiring day, rushing to and from the hospital, hope my grandma will be discharged from the hospital soon. Really hate that place, the only kinda of food thats appealing there would be subway, and the place is so ......gloomy I really don't like. But I had a great lunch and dinner with my dad, some bonding time. I wish my Dad stays with me, miss how things used to be. Told him about my plans after poly, but there's still one part that I have yet to let him know. God, I need more courage!

Lastly, I collected my Shiroi Kobito biscuits, ordered 2 boxes. 1 for myself only, and it tastes so fucking good, white chocolate yum tum tumz! Have the urge to grab like 10 to eat but shit no, must savour it slowly.

So,here's to the weekend CHEERS TO FRIDAY

And it's only 1141pm I've nothing to do but to ply Marvel vs capcom on my Ps3 to kill time, well ......weekends fly by so quickly all the time, no wonder they say time passes faster when you're enjoying. Right.

Yellow pink

2011-03-10T03:45:00.003+08:00

0620 on the way to Sam's crib for mahjong

Cheap thrills x Happy bus rides

Not a fantastic day for me, my plans to have a change of hair colour has to be postponed to next week and I'm afraid my weekends won't be what I planned for it to be.

Things will turn for the better

Goodnight

2011-03-09T04:35:00.003+08:00

I stare at this blank space, thinking of what to type, the thoughts that I'm trying to translate into words, but words are only words, they can't represent the mixture of emotions that are overwhelming me at this very moment.

I've never had the chance to have a proper heart to heart talk with you, to let you know how I feel about our relationship in the past 2 to 3 years because I've always wanted to maintain a strong front and never allow myself to break down in front of you. They say blood is thicker than water. How true,nothing affects me as much as my family.

Ever since things had turned bad, I've only shouted and yelled at you. I may have issues with letting people into my heart, fearing to show my weakness but honestly, deep down I'm dying to put down my pride and apologize to you. Once, you had everything and within a night, everything crumbled down on you yet I did not play my part and offer to be your pillar of support. Shame on me.

I can't imagine going through all this nightmare again.

Life has changed, we have to move on and to bring the good memories along with us, it's our choice. And, for me, I'm definitely keeping the good memories with me.

Months passed, years passed, I don't exactly know if you're coping well with the situation.I wanna stop building walls around me. Why did I even do that. But, all I want for you to know is that I love you and I'm gonna try even harder because I know the possibilities will amaze me. X

2011-03-08T18:55:00.001+08:00

This song is just so annoyingly addictive.

One of my favs at the mo

Party rock anthem

2011-03-08T18:44:00.003+08:00

Last wednesday's picture from butter, to celebration the end of my exams which only consists of one paper, the life of a marketing student with tons of projects though.

Had a pretty awesome time there. I feel better when Im sober than drunk, hate getting drunk. No, actually I hate alcohol. Go in to club with my make up in place, come out looking like crap.

It's good workout in there by the way, it's like exercising except I don't have to run and faint.

Shuhua & mel lets go party soon okie?

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Honestly I wonder if having absolutely nothing to do is a good or bad thing?

I wanna look for a job but it's so difficult to find one that doesn't require me to work during the weekends, so I think just fuck it and stay at home, occupy myself with a story book and binge non stop. Not that bad,right?

For now... I just wna go to Udders @ gardens to have ice cream.

Monday blues

2011-03-07T14:13:00.003+08:00

So today marks the beginning of my holidays......
It started pouring like crazy when I was having lunch and wondered what plans are me and the girls gonna have later.

Anyhow, it sucks to wake up to nice text messages and then watching the situation go downhill after that. Everything that I waited for all these years is finally dawning on me that things may not be as perfect as I thought it would be. Maybe I was just chasing the idea of perfection but it may not be what I want. It shouldn't feel this way, that I know for sure. I tend to remember all the bad memories rather than the good ones, one day I'll eventually destroy myself. I need to change and start thinking of what I really want in life.

The more you look down on me and have doubts about my abilities, the more I'm determined to prove you wrong. I just need the chance, just wait and see.

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By the way, #cchmsnostalgia was trending on twitter last night! Was so happy, it's like the best memories of my life were from cchms, the best people of my life are from there too. Those were the days....

2011-03-04T01:51:00.003+08:00

I miss clubbing at rebel, but ugh Im too old to party.

Sometimes i feel that way.

Back to watching Pretty little liars, Sher's staying over at my place so we're gonna watch serials hxc tonight

And cheers to friday I love the weekends x 10~

Blow the candles

2011-03-03T15:54:00.009+08:00

My 20th :

Thank you everyone who came down for my birthday party :-)

I was worried that many of my friends wouldnt be able to make it, but they came down!!!

Super super happy!

W and J helped me with the deco so nice of them

TNPNF You super glam

Again

My best secondary school mates,ever.

Sherry baby and rachel

And! Serena came down for my birthday too I was so happy!!

She's my best friend in primary school, we climbed trees together, and did the craziest things together, will never forget!

Wx!

Aunty already, im 20.

My beeeetches

The guys. And kelvin never fails to make people laugh.

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Whats a party without the presence of my good friends?

This year's birthday was way better than the previous ones, felt so happy and everyone managed to mingle,I guess? Well, once again..... Thank you guys for coming down for my birthday xoxo

(I'm smiling as i type this, eee sound so sick but I happy what!)

Waiting for my Mahjong crew to come over at 6 and we'll mahjong it tonight

Lovin' life after my exams.

What are words

2011-03-03T05:29:00.002+08:00

What are words

If you really don’t mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they’re only for good times

Then they don’t

When it’s love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we’re gone

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He is such a great guy.

Love is such an amazing thing.

2011-02-28T20:14:00.002+08:00

Lies will always turn out bitter in the end.

And you're just a miserable underaged girl who knows no shit.

Stay up late, we don't sleep

2011-02-24T04:29:00.006+08:00

Kbox with Nel Sam & Sher on a monday night

Bloody cheap only $8 and you can sing until your voice becomes hoarse.

I wanna go again next week!

Shermain is like kbox queen, she sings so fucking well I sing the same song as her I feel like out of tune queen.

This is so random and it's the first time I've heard of "beer drinking competition" at Kbox. One of the staff came in to ask if we wanted to participate and when I heard the word "beer", I turned to Sher immediately. She can drink like .....Idk? 100 times of me.

And, free beer. Why not hahaha!

Everyone step enthu.

This guy fail max. Drink beer so slowpoke and he's a guy ffs

Go sher go sher go sher!

She drank a glass of beer in 7 seconds! For me.....I think I'll take about a minute or more?

And after that I confirm pukefest. Thats how bad of a drinker I am.

I dont know when Sam started being camera shy

Sher why smiling to your phone ah!!!

Was a great night with them, it's been long since only the 4 of us went out, it was sweet, being able to just go crazy and talk non stop with them. Feels like poly year 1 all over again.

I feel like it's damn sick to smile to your phone sometimes, but I think I do it a lot when I receive a happy message or something? But i definitely won't smile when I see my mom's text teehee. Wish I had a text now, my phone is so quiet I really hate it especially on weekdays when I'm super bored.

Today i'm being procrastinating queen because I've not even started on my end sem exams revision, everyone in poly is so damn competitive I've become so immune to the tension and competition around me. I'd rather not participate. I'll start tomorrow after meeting Mel in the evening for some shopping tomorrow :-)

And I just watched gossip girl episode 15 I really really want Chuck and Blair to be together again like how they were. They're like the cutest couple ever. Wish I had a Chuck in love with me, he was so......charismatic back then.

Reality check: Guys IRL suck. Well, most of them suck anyway.

Sleepy time, I love how time flies when I'm asleep.

Night folks.

Walking travesty

2011-02-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

Tons of photos but lazy to post 'em up.

Was just thinking about how we make many sacrifices in our lives, only hoping that they're worth it. But, what if they turn out to be the opposite? Life is such an irony, we keep trying and fighting for what we perceive as "worthy" and "important" only to regret these sacrifices next time. I don't know what i'm blabbering, honestly but I do know that I'm having second thoughts.

I am such a mess sometimes.

Well, on a brighter note.....I'm quitting all the fucking nicotine. Officially stayed away from it for a week and I'm good, surpressing it everytime I see my friends smoke and i'm trying to get them to join my "campaign". Suddenly feel so health-conscious, cos I'm scared to grow old and face with countless health issues.

The entire week has been alright so far, gonna have my gossip girl therapy in abit! Team blair forever xoxo!!!

2011-02-21T07:13:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna practice selective hearing anymore.

I'm all ready to face the truth.

Keep me in love

2011-02-21T06:00:00.008+08:00

Finally back home after having the crappiest time ever at the airport an hour ago. Finished the last project I'll ever be doing for this semester and I'm free until my test which will be 1.5 weeks later. All of my close friends in poly are graduating and I'm still stuck here with a year to complete but it's okay I will complete this sickening journey and move on to the next (better) part of my life.

And,here comes the best part of my birthday this year!!!

They surprised me on my birthday itself! Let me explain how the surprise went.

So, I went to school for a test on my birthday 14 Feb what a day and then Shuhua was telling me that Mel will let me know the "instructions" to follow which was to go home to change to something girly for a girly place. Idk why but the first place I thought of was Botanical gardens, totally irrelevant. So, after much persuasion from Mel meow I went home only to find Shuhua cooking in my kitchen!!!

And they bought flowers for me. Im such a boy, I do not like flowers for gifts but this was from my babygirls!!! Super cute and sweet of them.

My two pretty chefs for the day

Spotted: Mel koh why u eat before us!

It was a really simple dinner made with extra love from my babies and honestly, it tasted great! Am really impressed that they can cook! The best I can cook is macaroni.

I'm marrying Hua for sure if Im a guy :-)

Im the oldest currently and also the shortest fml?

Yanting's ink. I always get tempted to get inked but nopz I find it a really meaningless thing to do on my body now cos my life is meaningless.

My brother

Luv you all bb! Really very super duper ultra sweet of y'all to do this for me. I had the best dinner out of all my birthdays throughout the years...

This home cooked dinner felt so much more meaningful and special compared to some step-romantic dinner or some valentines day dinner with my ex. I was really touched that day, like my friends came over to join me for my birthday, had a satisfying meal filled with laughter. Most importantly, hope our friendship will last forever and ever and we'll always be on one another's side like how we did since secondary school days.

Thank you so much, you girls made my day I can't even express how happy I was (and still am) in words :-)

2011-02-17T04:44:00.002+08:00

One year ago, I had to live with all the bullshit & negativity everyday.

Now, I will watch you eat your shit and live in misery forever.

Fuck yeah, I am fucking gloating over your misery.

And I'm enjoying every single moment of it.

Bvday

2011-02-15T02:49:00.003+08:00

My valentines day + Birthday was a blast this year. Birthday celebrations has never been THIS awesome. Im resizing the other photos I'm so excited to blog about it!!! My friends surprised me, which made me feel so super extremely touched. Thank q guys,i feel so loved this birthday. Don't know what I would do without all these wonderful people around me, really. So grateful :-)

See the cute lil' flower and bear my bbgirls bought for me! Though Im not a flower-fanatic kind of girl, I really appreciate it cos it's so thoughtful and I will love whatever my friends give me hehe and plus the surprise dinner shuhua prepared. Will blog about it once I'm done with the photos.

I LOVE VDAY BDAY 2011.

How about you?

2011-02-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

In an hour's time it's gonna be my 20th but I've already had the best best best birthday celebration with all my favourite people. I'll blog about it soon once my A&P test is over. Well, I'm going to do something different this year on my birthday itself, gonna pray and do donation for the right reaons :-)

Right now, I'm feeling so mixed up. Haix these quarrels, do they make us mad at each other or do they only bring us closer? Either one, I'm still scared, scared that it's true that nothing good lasts. But anyhow, I've somehow learnt to appreciate whatever I have before it's gone. Maybe then, no matter how hard I cry and beg, it's gonna be useless.

Okay on a happier note, Happy birthday to me!!! :-)

To my besties

2011-02-08T00:52:00.005+08:00

Old photos bring back memories.

I have tons of photos with my babies, which can represent the crazy amount of time we've spent together and I'll never delete these photos cos they mean so much to me.

Our cheap thrills and all the time we've spent together, from Cchms till now we're still tight!

Just want you girls to know that I really love you all so very much (Ong yan ting you also!) and it's been a long long way since we're friends and I really appreciate all the things y'all have done fo' me. I don't know what i would do if it wasn't for you all, listening to me when Im feeling hella crappy and helping me thru my struggle during the past 2 years.

Though we don't spend as much time as we did, I'm glad we're still super duper close, being there for one another all the time. And no matter what you're going thru, I'll be there :-)

Cheers to our friendship!!!

Xoxo

Happy cny

2011-02-07T18:14:00.003+08:00

Ohaiii Im back to blogging~

How was CNY for you?

My cny was really well spent this year, my mood was the total opposite of last year. Last year, my mood was damn foul and I even quarrelled with somebody but it's all good and better this year. Went to play with "Kong ming deng" after reunion dinner where I wrote all my wishes on the lantern and lit it up. Plus, I saw the fireworks. A pity we didn't go to Chinatown to shop around.

I really enjoyed my CNY with my family and friends. By the way, I finally learnt how to play Poker and obviously being a "fish", I lost money in poker but I won in banluck *looks at Shuhua*

The only thing I hated about CNY was that my relatives will tell me how much I've slimmed down, I need to put on weight. Fucking annoying. And especially when they question me about my studies blah blah The same old questions, and the same old lies.

Now that CNY is over, the next thing Im looking forward to is my Birthday celebration this Saturday!!! Hope all my friends will turn up for my buffet and eat like crazy. I cannot wait teehee. The stress of finding a good caterer and my decorations is finally over I can finally rest and start doing constructive work tonight.

2011-01-27T03:00:00.002+08:00

I have chestnut brown hair now!!! I know i complained about Liese's hairdye yesterday because the color didnt turn out expected but well, Im beginning to like it. My highlights look greyish-green now, trash color ha ha ha! It's darker IRL. No more bright hair color yay yay yay ~

Maybe i'll just perm my hair next.

Shopping at town today wasn't fruitful at all, I need retail therapy again this weekend. I have a million things to rant about when friday comes, but I'll just control my anger now. Ugh. Wish i can just type it all out here but nayyyyy I can't.

We're all fake anyway.

2011-01-26T04:06:00.003+08:00

Felt so terrible today.

I skipped school again. God, i actually felt bad and angry with myself for skipping school.

The school should totally offer night classes for us.

That aside. I went jogging today too! Well, I think I sucked. Idk if it's because I've stopped exercising for a long time or maybe it's because of the ciggarettes and horrible food intake I have that almost caused me to faint today. That feeling sucked big time. Jogged a few rounds and then I stopped then I puked, and couldn't even stand to walk. Everything was blurry and I was super close to blacking out. Ouch.Had to postpone my plans of going to the gym after that.

Anyhow, I did my research on the net and it's due to low blood pressure. Anyone has low blood pressure and experiences this too? Wish my blood pressure will increase so i won't have to face this shit and exercise like a normal person, in hope to shed some weight. Maybe i should opt for swimming instead?

I actually bought a new pair of sports shoes specially to jog :-(

This week has been a really bad start for me. Unnecessary quarrels and misunderstandings, I can't deal with it. I'm so tired, physically and mentally. Time to fucking sleep. Night~

Stressbuster

2011-01-25T04:04:00.002+08:00

I'm bored.

Sucks to have school in 5 hours time.

Watching Moment of truth right now. I can totally tell you what programmes are on everyday cos I'm that bored that I watch tv.

I feel terrible today because it's a Monday. Once monday is over, the rest of the days will come quickly and I treasure my weekends more than over because it's the only time I can be project-free and the weekends always makes everything better.

Show goes on

2011-01-24T15:53:00.004+08:00

At the cheesecake cafe with hua!

Well, I'm not a fan of cheesecakes but i do love chocolate cakes. I love chocolates so much it make me fat! Can i haz somemore ha ha ha~

It was a short catch up session. Me mel and hua are all busy with our school work...

But!!! We need to meet up and chill our asses off once we're done with the stupid exams and projects. I miss those times where we had stayovers and girl talks. Feels good to chat with my best friend and talk about all the problems we're facing, like something off my chest.

So excited about CNY! Excited about wearing new clothes, about going to walk chinatown, about new year food, about gatherings!!! Sadly my family is really small and I dont have any close cousins I can actually communicate with so Im planning to invite my friends over if possible and gamble :-)

And I need to get additional CNY clothes becos those I bought are in black and my dad doesn't really like it. Most of my clothes are in black anyway,makes me look slimmer. Im getting carried away just by thinking about CNY. After cny, it's gonna be my birthday but I've yet to plan anything. School is draining my energy and brain cells and all I wanna do everyday is to sleep sleep & sleep.

Gonna nap again.

Be your own hero

2011-01-19T02:54:00.003+08:00

Failed attempt to dye my hair x Cold rock lovin' x Nabins

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I'VE GOT SO MUCH WORK TO DO, IT'S SUFFOCATING ME!!!

Good thing is that it's gonna be mid of the week tomorrow, and i'll be free once I submit my 8 page reflection journal on thursday. God, why did i even sign up for this stupid module?!

This week, i'm gonna get a pair of running shoes, I need to work out and start toning my body. Eat less, exercise more to shed away the flabbiness. Cannot take it when I'm so "untoned". Then, i shall go kite-flying and catch a movie, eat ice cream and spend my weekend wisely ^^^^

Sounds good to me.

Really drained from all the projects, submissions and presentations. Hope everyone that is going through the same phase as me know that you're not alone! Gonna continue on my less-than-half-done assignment and sacrifice sleep.

Well, sleep is for the weak.

2011-01-18T01:28:00.003+08:00

I wish for the people around me to be happy.

I wish for myself to be happy as well.

Too much insecurities and negative thoughts I've been having, I'm scared that one day all things good will come to an end and I don't know what I'll turn into. So, all I want is to be positive, stay happy and when the people I love are happy....I will be happy as well.

Thats what I want for 2011.

All the untold secrets, the lies, the texts, the nightmares. I'm throwing them all away.

The bad memories and past are not worth keeping, time for some mental spring cleaning.

All for the better.

I can be happy as long as I believe.

Good night souls.

I'm a space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon

2011-01-17T01:53:00.004+08:00

Attended Jia en's birthday celebration at Titanium last night with everyone! Was a good night, felt really excited for her but I left early cos was tired :-(

The girls at the thai disco were so pretty and their neh neh also big... Mad envious!!!

Today, someone left for camp. I've never been a fan of sundays. It's the beginning of hell..... And my birthday is in a month's time, I still haven't confirm what i'll be doing yet. The car has been giving me problems I really wish I can get a new car. DAMN.....Wish.

CNY is in 2 weeks, the feeling of getting new clothes damn shiok. New hair colour and yeah I had a hair cut, i should probably cut it even shorter. Now, i probably need to shed some weight cos Im feeling fat having more than 4 meals per day.

GEEEEZ GOODNIGHT

2011-01-14T16:26:00.004+08:00

Back from the torturous school, slept for 5 hours only and I feel so tired.... Tired eyes, my friday burn already :-(

So much for looking forward to the weekends because now I have to do my project and meet the client instead of going shopping as planned. Fuck this shit. Anyways, today my classmates were talking about the Horoscope thing. Apparently, because of the "stars", our horoscopes are different now and I'm a Capricorn now. EW NO?!

Read this:

http://blogs.babble.com/strollerderby/2011/01/13/new-zodiac-signs-2011-a-recap-of-the-changes-for-dummies/

Well,i believe in horoscope...

This is such a random post.

Enjoy your weekends :-)

Ageing

2011-01-12T04:11:00.003+08:00

Skipped school and went shopping with Damien today!

Yeah but it wasn't shopping for my own stuff. I'm done shopping~ Overspent this month!!!

Shopped for my friend's stuff, makes me happy to see someone else happy :-)

Hate this time of the semester, everyone is rushing projects and I'm included I HATE IT! School is bullshit, makes me so tired and sian which is why I must enjoy once school's out on friday.

Am watching "Nu ren wo zui da" I don't usually watch this show but uhm Idk, just felt like watching randomly and I feel mad inferior. Feel like i havent been taking care of my skin enough and I'm already 20 soon, time to invest on even better facial products and take care of my skin.

Another disadvantage of growing up, SIGH.

2011-01-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

This dress is a $16 mistake ha ha ha~

Im heading out for a smoke with Sher and Damien, what a great way to end my monday.

Baiiii!

2011-01-10T15:51:00.002+08:00

Having a headache over how to celebrate my 20th.

I keep feeling like i've not enough time because my birthday is in a month's time and it falls on a weekday and it's during the week I'll be having exams. Wtf, last year my birthday was Valentines day + 1st day of CNY and this year it's like that. Can it get any worst?!

Most of my friends are turning 21 this year and they're all planning on how to celebrate their birthdays and Im only turning 20, and i already have zero clue on what to do. Any suggestions? :-(

Had a terrible birthday last year and I do not wish for the same thing to happen again. All i want is a simple celebration with my friends and have a good meal. But no chalet,no no no.

Nevermind, Im off to updating my tumblr (www.scarletletterman.tumblr.com)

Follow me~

Trust no one

2011-01-10T05:28:00.003+08:00

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GOD I NEED TO STOP ONLINE SHOPPING

Every minute i spend browsing through clothes, sprees, the more I will click to order and I've already spent 3xx but everything looks so pretty and I can never get enough of clothes and heels fuck yeah. Okay maybe i'm over reacting for CNY but everyone wants to look good on cny right!

So anyway, I've had a really awesome weekend, attending Wx's birthday party, had my fair share of bbq food, hanging out with the homies and every sunday is the most dreaded day of the week.

Really happy that my appetite is back which means more food food food, Im craving for some meesua right now. 5 meals a day is good. Eat more, put on weight. Not that Im complaining at the mo.

Today was freaky cos while I was on the way to Mustafa, my car broke down with smoke and lots of water on the road but thankfully I was in a ulu road so there wasn't much cars, else I would probably have met with an accident. Thinking back, it's funny how I reacted. Pulled my friend to stand far away, fearing we would get burnt to death. IKR?!

So now, back to the weekdays back to school and back to anticipating for friday :(

USS

2011-01-10T04:10:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed myself thorougly at Universal Studios Singapore.

It was my first time there and I'm glad that my friends who went with me enjoyed our time there! Please book your tix in advance if you're planning to go there!!!

I loved how it felt when I entered USS, it was like I'm out of Singapore for half a day or so. And, i'm definitely going back there soon with express ticket this time woohooohooo~

There is where i bought my Gingy who accompanies me every night ^^^^

Attachment leads to expectations

2011-01-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

Welcome to 2011.

This is the year when i should start being independent and responsible for everything that I do. However, being independent is such a difficult thing to achieve when you've been spending every single day with someone. For the past 2 years, I've been a huge fool. I knew so many secrets but I chose to keep it within me, never being able to muster enough courage to let you know how I feel, and I thought maybe everything will just fade off eventually and I'll be able to live my life with no worries. But, then again, i don't know if hanging on is a good thing or not. I've never been happier in the recent months and yes, in 2011... all I want is to be happy and not have regrets. I hope.

Well, this week is gonna be really hectic with all the assignments due, and I have yet to begin on any. I'm waiting for my cup noodles to be ready, sitting in front of my laptop, trying to clear my mind and begin on more important things but somehow or rather, I wish i wasn't alone. Ugh, this emptiness is overwhelming. And the worst thing is that im down with the flu bug, my nose is tearing apart. To think i wanted to have a good start by attending tutorials and lectures.

May the days pass quickly and let my weekend be a blast. I only feel salvaged during weekends, who doesnt?

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

2010-12-31T01:58:00.003+08:00

Gingy love

Just got back from a catch up session with dearest hua while having cakes. There was this extremely weird couple sitting next to us and completely unaware of how we were mocking them but nonetheless, it was cool to have so much to talk about! Mel meow miss you!

I've been procastinating about doing my projects, okay I'll start in 2011 which is approx 22 hours away!!!! It shall be a simple thing for me, having dinner at home and drink some beer, and yeah.... No squeezing with the crowd outside~

Have a good countdown peepz!

2010-12-29T06:23:00.002+08:00

'You never really know what you had until it’s gone, and you never really know what you want until you’re alone."

(via eletheowl.tumblr)

Some random

2010-12-29T06:03:00.004+08:00

Doraemon's face so cute

Sweechoon x Mustafa

Oi i love mustafa hor it's such a wonderful place for you to walk around if you have nothing to do at after 2am or so. See see buy a few things also quite shiok hehe~

And i love having dimsum at night, becos I just had dimsum at 126 Geylang with Sherry and Damien but i'm hungry again. Shit should have went for tau huey and play some dota, instead we decided to sit in the car, plug in my itouch and talk. So,damien asked "What have you achieved in 2010?" which got me thinking. And, I'm still thinking....

One thing i know fo' sure is that Im starting to put in more effort to increase my school involvement. I wanna do better than last year. Regretted so much, then again, life IS full of regrets.

Okay la don't care already I shall watch Gossip girl and then head straight to sleep and may Friday come asap!

2010-12-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

Meowwwww~

Changed my blog design a lil'

Back to december

2010-12-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

Pink berry x Minnie

Been enjoying every single day of my holidays. The past 5 days since I got back from Hong kong has been rewarding, spending it with people I love to have in my life. Should probably start putting more effort into having a decent dinner with my family members.

First year not celebrating Christmas, well.... 2010 has been up,down and tough for me but things are getting better for me. Hope it gets better for everyone! I actually looked through the photos I've taken in 2010, and I miss my babygirls so much, we need to spend more time together. I love you girls!!!

3 more days to the end of 2010 I still dont know what to do for the countdown.

The older I get, the lazier i am and the more I can't be bothered to plan anything hehe

Time fo' supper with Sherrrrry~

2010-12-27T01:03:00.004+08:00

Super overdued x Yanting's 19th at Homeclub! Loved the people there....And most importantly I love Vivi ong!!! The memories of us during secondary school never fail to make me laugh cos we were fun that way!

And today my Itouch has been liberated. I've had my itouch for close to a year now and I've never had more than 2 apps. I know right..... so today Shermain helped me to download new apps, and i can finally play them while Im bored. I feel like a big ass noob.

In the meantime,I'm gonna play tap tap revenge. Have a good monday, or rather good week ahead guyz! :)

Taylor Swift - Haunted (Acoustic) + Lyrics

2010-12-12T19:37:00.001+08:00